Prayers are sent.... Hopefully all gets a bit brighter each and every day. You can always count on us to help you through those smokey and smoldering days, cause we have dry wood here....
24“ ‘ “The Lord bless you and keep you; 25the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; 26the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” ’
How are you DB? I hope all is well today. I also try to keep in mind the attitude that my Grandmother passed along to us. Similar to - The Lord Helps those that help themselves. Don't forget to get outside and get some fresh air. Walk and enjoy the time outside even in these temperatures. Just dress for it and do it in shorter periods of time. Being outdoors is good for you! Get some sun on your face when it comes out. And talk to good and positive people. Surround yourself with people you want to be/feel like. Keep us posted here. Okay?
Like BS said earlier, this will not be the low point, unfortunately. It's true that you don't have to look around much and find someone worse off. There is lots of life to live and there will be new friendships/ bonds created. Just look at how much support this old forum has given! Think of what kind of support you'll get from people that aren't infatuated with the cutting and burning of wood!! Keep posting youtube music vids, too!
Thanks again everyone! You are all very special and I have been lucky to run across such good people. I never really understood depression until it happened to me. It is easy for people to say, "Get over it" without really understanding what a hole it is. The whole thing started off slowly until I realized I had isolated myself as much as possible to a point where I existed in a pathetic cycle. I have been 'just living' in an unhealthy way for a couple years, if that makes any sense. In general, I didn't care. I pushed my ex away so much that it has come to a point where he has ended up hating me and found someone else. About two months ago, I got sick of myself. I knew I had to change and have been slowly making progress. Last week something happened and it ate at me until I had a slight relapse earlier this week. I reached out to you all, had a good cry, got it out, and now I am moving ahead again. I appreciate all of your prayers, good thoughts, humor, and music. I have gotten away from religion, which I realize was a mistake and part of my spiral downward. I didn't see a professional because I honestly didn't acknowledge how bad I was until I started coming out of the fog. I am taking this one day at a time and slowly getting my life back. I am writing this update because maybe someone else is in the same position and it can help them.
One more thing to add, depression is like a bubble. My own little dark world. The disease is very isolating.
See? I would have never have guessed that. But it helps a lot to know people understand because before this happened I didn't have a clue.
I have been there. It is something that can hang on, and no amount to drugs, no psychiatrist, can be of any use until one finds a new way of living. I have been reasonably happy now for 17 years, accepting life on life's terms, not taking myself too seriously, and trusting a higher power. I try to help others, and accept it with gratitude.
And a very slippery slope! Quite proud of you for realizing and acting on it, too easy to "just live", but you can feel good again.
I was in and out of 15 business a day for almost 20 years, I got to know alot of people and since I did not work at that business people felt safe sharing things they didn't want discuss with co-workers. #1 topic was depression. I can attest are among MANY, its not just you, and its not just women, men too. On the same note, there are many loving husbands here and I have no doubt some have seen their wives struggle.
Lucky, the people who have not had this. It is not sadness, it is not "a slump", it is not burn-out. AND it is NOT something you can "snap out of"! It is a debilitating condition to interferes with everything. Usually when one gets sick, the body will tell you what it needs; sleep, water, etc. This illness seems to treated by doing the exact opposite of what we want to do, which is isolate and alienate. DB, keep doing what you are doing, I feel you are doing it right.
DB... prayers go out to you and Im glad to hear it sounds like things are looking up. Lots of us have been there... myself included. I went through a reallllyy bad patch after college and there was a time I thought Id end up isolated and alone for life. Took professional help to get me straightened out, and its something Ive rarely spoken of outside closest friends. 15 years later my life has taken a 180 for the better from where I was... I never would have believed it at the time. Keep that positive attitude and whatever is getting you down will pass!
Thoughts and prayers DB. You're already a stronger person for recognizing the situation. Everyone compartmentalizes their troubles differently, knowing when they have overwhelmed your own capacity to live a happy life takes a strong person and makes them stronger.
